Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with yourcounsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.
You obviously don’t this but I am horrible at small talk… sometimes. Okay a whole lot! Just ask my cousin Isaac. But when I talk to God, that ceases to matter. I don’t have to pretend with Him. He knows all there is to know about me. I just have to start talking and sometimes that the hardest part for most of us. To start talking to God. Not only talking to Him but making Him part of our lives.
The whole of last week Cynthia’s WhatsApp status read ‘if you are not part of it Lord, I don’t want any part of it, Lord.’ That declaration hit home. I was so challenged. Can you dare say you would let go of anything that God was not part of? Hard huh? The Good news is that it is actually very possible and achievable.
Time and time again I have listened to several preachers talking about how we should invite God to be part of our every waking moment that is, every activity of your day and I would kind of get overwhelmed. Yes, I wanted him to be part of me, but as later found out, I wanted that on ‘my’ terms. I wanted to control what parts He was involved in or that I invited Him into… and I think we are all guilty of that a time or two …or more.
But then there’s King David. I am continuously wowed by how God himself refers to him as ‘a man after my own heart’. I would say to myself ‘I want to be that… I want God to say of me the same.’ Deeper grew the yearning to be that daughter who brings joy to her Father… I started to actively seek knowledge about how I could make this happen and it led me to ‘God delights in a woman of noble character.’ I will tell you it is no easy task! But I said to myself, I have failed at a number of things but I am not going to give up trying to me that daughter who makes you smile, Father. One good deed at a time, one change of heart at a time, one note at a time.
Then came the hard part. Making my Lord part of my every moment. I wanted to be intentional about the whole process. Making God part of me was like looking at myself through a magnifying glass. Goodness the work I had to do!!! Like I mentioned I almost got overwhelmed… lucky for me, one of the preachers I was listening to had mentioned to use my dilemmas as opportunities to make conversation with God.
In the beginning, I can’t count the number of times I had to check my problem solving reflexes or distractions but gradually, I started talking to him first… (yes, somedays I would slack) but it helped… it checked my words, lousy habits. Particularly, I had a challenge expressing myself when it came to clear defending myself. While I am a generally outspoken person, I always worried I would say more than I ought to and have to apologize later or worse simply ‘hold my peace’ for peace sake but remain disturbed. Other times I worried I wouldn’t know the right words to say to encourage my friends or someone who was down… I told God about it…
Towards the moment of truth, I say to God… ‘Father the moment of truth approaches and I need to speak. I need to sound like someone who interacts with you, I can’t afford to misrepresent you!? More than how I feel I want to say the right thing… that will build and not break my relationship with this person. I don’t want to be misunderstood but to clearly communicate my thoughts and not have to apologize for it. I want to be firm. I don’t want my voice to shake… I want this person to know I am sorry… I want to say what this person needs to hear… Not my will but yours be done.’ (Depending on the situation)
And whoaaa!!!!! Half the time I can’t believe what I end up saying is coming from me. I am so bewildered by the turn of conversations… it is almost like an out of body experience! It is like a calmness settles over me and I can see possible better endings to conversations… where I would’ve been accusing I am objective, where I would’ve been feisty and self-righteous I am diplomatic. Where I would’ve been gossipy I hold back. Where I have no words to say …verses of encouragement pop into my mind. I love it! I even feel more mature its weird. Even the feedback I get is different. Good different!
I discovered that what God thinks about me is more than how I feel about things. It is important to grow out of this mindset of ‘I feel / I don’t feel’ or you may have challenges executing God’s will. The first commandment requires us to Worship the Lord with all our mind body soul and spirit. Before anything else, we must totally submit our whole selves to God. Apart from that we are forming idols and you know that a no go zone. God demands exclusivity in being first in everything about us (Exodus 20: 1-6) And like all good things the more you practice, the easier it gets… until He is intertwined in our business and we are His business. And there is no way He can fail His business! He clearly promised. They that are God’s workmanship must achieve his purpose.
So today I simply wanted to share my experience about how I am trying to deepen my interactions with God and to encourage you to do the same. Start those conversations with Him and remember to study the word so that you may be able to recognize his voice and His will when He speaks to you. Conversations are two-way.
Lastly, never forget that it is in God’s presence alone that we find our true selves as He is our creator, quit looking all over the place for someone to understand you and start this conversation with Him today. I assure you, you will be amazed at how God responds to all the things, about you, that you thought were insignificant.