Everything will be alright, alright, alright. Everything will be alright. Things are not as bad as you think. Everything will be alright. ( Country song by anonymous singer)
It’s about 12:53am in the night and I jump out of a very tiring dream and all I can think about is to take a cup of coffee. Yes, I know it’s midnight, but I really want coffee. So I go ahead and get me one.
So in my tiring dream, I am busy fighting with my little sister over my phone. To date the obsession sisters have with each other’s phones beats me…if it’s not to look at or take pictures then she just wants to take your airtime.. In my dream, the little sister, Nancy wants to use my airtime for reasons I will never know.Now the funny thing about this airtime is that it has actually been credited to me so I must use it carefully because let’s be honest, it’s hard earned. Thank you so much cellular generation but you killed my night with a tiring dream?. Why would a child, student at most, who probably can’t afford airtime on their own, have a phone!?. ( Am sorry, that sounds selfish 😀🏃).Can only imagine some of the responses running in your mind right now.” Duhh..she got friends to talk too, she got school work to catch up with during holiday or out-of-school free time” , all I can say is, ” you are right in your verdict”.We live in a liberal world, so literally that makes you responsible for your decisions.
Where was I? The dream, Nancy and I still fight and oh God! she has me on the floor, trying to take my phone. You must be wondering why I don’t want to give her my phone?
Hihi..okay the truth is that I am trying to save that airtime for me to be able to get in touch with Theo. Theo is the young doctor I have dated for about five years but then as you may have experienced, the pandemic (Covid 19) doesn’t leave us the same. I don’t know if it’s really the pandemic or it has been running in his mind to push me out of his life for some time. I guess the lockdown provided a perfect alibi. The breakup was hard on me and I just can’t believe I have to forget him. Somehow, small rays of hope show up in my confused life every now and again. A hope that he might still be the one for me. So literally I was denying my little sister this phone, because of a hope that I will have to talk to my heartbreaker, I don’t want her to use my little credit.
And bum, Nelly jumps out of her dream. Thank God I woke up, because honestly, I was tired of fighting. From the corner of my sleepy eye, I see my phone lighting and guess what, it’s a message notification.My lazy eye is not willing at all to wake up and check what the message has for me but somehow, I persist and pull out that phone only to find… it’s Theo. Theo sent me a message. My heart stopped… comforted like a warm blanket on a cold night. Honestly, I have been longing for him…! Yes, judge me if you wish.
Theo is just saying ” Goodnyt child of God “
Here is a little background, earlier on as the evening faded into night, my friend and roommate, Shivan and I had an evening walk: the question was “what are you looking for in a new boyfriend?” In that moment my heart was tempted to think about Theo, only to be reminded by my mind to forget that Theo guy, why..? Because He left you terribly broken ..good thing, not emptyy handed, so surely I have room to get myself fixed and moving on with time. Mr Time is really a faithful friend because he always has your back through thick and thin till death do you apart. I love Mr Time.(salute).
Am sorry, this might seem too long for your eyes…Just know I was left confused… Why..?
Because of that country song that was playing in the background as I sat on my bed sipping on some late night coffee wondering if that country singer is prophesying into my life, mind lost in the dream and that message that Theo just sent me deep in the night. Was he just thinking about me as I dreamt about calling him? Could he be having a small beat in his heart that beats for me and probably I picked it in the dream? ..I don’t know what to believe.How about the evening walk with my roommate because we agreed that we should wait for new boyfriends. Wow..it’s countless questions running in my mind..and probably you also got countless questions coming from different situations you encounter on life.We get to meet signs or even sparks in the dark along life’s journey.Some times we get true signs of things to come , other times we simply get sparks in the dark..false signs leading to a dead end.Hmm.. but you know what, it’s never as bad as you think, everything will eventually be alright.
At Least in all, I have learnt to take it all to God(designer of life) in prayer and then wait for Mr.Time. Time is a truth teller and a wound healer . He always has the best for you in his store. Never give up waiting. Just don’t be anxious or else you’ll be disappointed.Just keep patience and hope, and soon the Storm will be over.Time is the captain.