I don’t know who can relate but here it is.It’s been quite crazy the past few couple of weeks. The whole going to work thing, struggling to do the work whilst fighting back hurt feelings and the urge to lush out at the bosses. Sometimes I do actually lush out but not to their knowledge.
Ps: I love to work and can’t stand being idle.
I guess how much could I really do it except for be thankful to social media and other technologies that make it possible to block contacts with whom you wish to no longer communicate. Thank you to all the men and women who spend sleepless nights writing code.
Ps: If you are reading this, please come up with a way for me to leave a group on WhatsApp without being detected. Thank you in advance.
Well, this is all I have managed thus far. I have probably quit at least 3 days each week. But here is the thing, I am a christian and I know this isn’t right. Believe it or not it actually aches my heart when I finally get home at the end of the day’s wars. I wonder why we cannot just be professional in the workplace. We really do not have to be friends but we needn’t be toxic either.
I have changed and I can feel it. It’s like I am programmed to attack on que you know like the tax billing system. Always on edge waiting for an opportunity to jump at something or anyone. I am not this person.
Ps: Lord, I will follow, so take the lead. My life is not my own. Take my surrender. Take all I am. I trust in you alone…
I am a spontaneous laugher. I live to bring a smile on a heavy heart. I find joy in almost anything and anyone. Somehow this is true until one of my bosses walks into a room or even so much as sends a text message or beeps on the phone.
Crazy right. I promise I am not exaggerating.
I know it may get better or not, who knows really. I am only sure that I cannot continue like this. Something needs to change. I need to be me, I love that Girl.