I feel like I am at a place in my life where “I finally make sense”, yes to me and oh boy, does it feel good! Comfortable in my own skin and with who I am as a person because for the first time ever, I know what that is. If you asked me where I saw myself in 5years, a year ago, I would probably have given you the rehearsed response that I crammed in school. (the big job after graduation, the marriage, the kids) it is the circle of life after all, we are born, we exist, we go through school, we get jobs, give birth to kids, raise them, we get old, we die. Our kids carry on. same cycle.
Ask me today where I see myself in five years and my honest answer will be, I DON’T REALLY KNOW. But I do know where I see myself tomorrow and that is good enough for me.
I see myself finishing those last five pages of Bassey Ikpi’s essays, I see myself starting on that skin care routine that I have been putting off for weeks, I see myself putting more time into those home workouts that I have become obsessed with of late, I see myself decluttering and making room for the things that matter, I see myself letting go of all the unrealistic expectations, the past that I cannot change, the mistakes, the guilt, the hurt, the shame, I see myself embracing, love, forgiveness, harmony, and tranquillity.
I see myself taking care of me, I see myself reborn, I see myself starting over, I see hope, I see hope because I believe in something, I see hope because I believe in myself, I see hope because I believe in a higher power. I see hope.
I do have a dream, I do have ambition, but I want to be well enough to enjoy it, I want to be well enough to take care of others, I want to be well enough to grow and have a positive impact on society, I want to be a reason someone smiles, I want to live and not just exist, I want to build a legacy. So, in five years, I see myself living, I see myself happy.